Disrupted Plans - An Open Heart

You know that feeling when you've been really looking forward to something, all day, and then it gets pulled out from under you? I've experienced that today, just when I really needed something to cheer me up. I cannot discuss this with anyone, because no one would really understand. I honestly feel close to tears, and I shouldn't. It's not like the thing I was looking forward to is no longer a possibility. In fact, it has only been put off, but the plans have been altered so that they will not be the family experience I wished for. I feel diminished, somehow, but there is nothing I can do. It is in these times that I find it necessary to consider others and focus on that which has made me who I am - The love of Christ.

Some of My Favorite Quotes

This does not include the ones already posted on my blog :)

"Profanity is a Crutch for the Conversationally Crippled." - Unknown

"In reality there is perhaps not one of our natural passions so hard to subdue as pride. Disguise it, struggle with it, beat it down, stifle it, mortify it as much as one pleases, it is still alive, and will every now and then peep out and show itself...For even if I could conceive that I had completely overcome it, I should probably be proud of my humility." - Benjamin Franklin.

If passion drives you, let reason hold the reins. ~Benjamin Franklin

What you don't see with your eyes, don't witness with your mouth. ~Jewish Proverb

When we were children we were grateful to those who filled our stockings at Christmas time. Why are we not grateful to God for filling our stockings with legs? ~G.K. Chesterton

The unfortunate thing about this world is that good habits are so much easier to give up than bad ones. ~Somerset Maugham

It is amazing how complete is the delusion that beauty is goodness. ~Leo Tolstoy

I will permit no man to narrow and degrade my soul by making me hate him. ~Booker T. Washington

Silence is the true friend that never betrays. ~Confucius

Rachel

Rachel - My best friend. I am sorry to say that I have not written about her before now. We have known each other for around 11 years. We were actually forced onto each other by our parents - a very fun experience, mind you - and became quick friends. It took five years before I called her my best friend, but she has been ever faithful and loving to me. She is more than I deserve. We get quite crazy when we're together, and we do things I would never do in front of anybody else. She has seen the best and the worst of me, and she stills hangs around. Our beliefs may differ, but our values are the same, which makes for some interesting conversations. I thank God for her every day, and couldn't imagine a better friend.

All People Are Stupid - Chapter One

All People Are Stupid
A Guide to Helping People Think
by Sarah D. Miller

Chapter 1: How to Get A’s In Class
Success In High School, College, and Beyond

When taking classes, there is always this need for students to get an A in everything; However, there is also the misconception that there are special tricks to getting this coveted grade. This chapter is to help the reader come to the realization that an A that is hard to get is given only to the student who wants it. How have I come to this conclusion? Simply by knowing that getting an A requires work, and the work required seems far too much for some to handle. Through this chapter, I hope to make the task a little easier and clearer to those who have a difficult time. Also, to those who are no longer in school and think that there is no need for them to read this chapter, you are wrong! Much of the information in this chapter can be helpful to people who are not students, especially when it comes to learning about how the brain reacts to its surroundings.

There are 7 major steps to doing well in classes.
Attending
Listening
Knowing when to take notes
Asking Questions
Studying/Doing Homework
Follow Up
Taking Good Tests

The first step is to attend the class. This may seem like an obvious thing to say, but it is not uncommon for college students to simply skip a class for no real reason at all. I’ve watched students come in for a class, and if the teacher was not already there, they would leave. I often heard other students discuss skipping their next class just because they wanted to. This is a very bad habit to begin and very hard to break if started. If you ever feel the urge, immediately ban that idea from your mind. Skipping class means you could miss out on what could be a major class lecture and/or discussion. There may be an important assignment given, due the next class, which you will not be able to hand in, unless you ask about the class (which most students do not do). Even skipping a review class is unwise, because good teachers, although most of the time very well organized, will sometimes forget about important information you may need to know until they look over the test you are reviewing for. If this is ever the case and you miss a review class, you might fail based on the information you could not have possibly studied for. I have watched students fail classes as a direct result from this very problem. It is never a good idea to miss a class.

The second step is to listen to the teacher. This is one of the hardest parts, believe it or not. The newest generations are being raised on fast-paced sports, video games, movies, etc. As a result, anything that does not vary its method of output about every five minutes will soon become boring to its audience. This is bad for the teachers who are trying to teach wandering minds and eyes. The most interesting teacher I had was one who was constantly varying his methods. I never came close to falling asleep in his classes. One minute he would be writing on the board, then next he would have the overhead on, the next he would start a discussion, the next there was a pop quiz. However, another teacher of equal caliber I found extremely dull, because he never varied his teaching methods. I was almost always feeling lulled to sleep in his class. It was not that the class bored me. I was interested in it, but I could not easily keep my attention on the same method of teaching for almost hour and thirty minutes (which was how long my classes were, on average). Note: I said it was not easy, but neither was it impossible. When faced with a class that is too methodical and meticulous, it becomes important to keep your brain alert. There are hundreds of ways to do this, and every person is different. Everyone can do this in a different way. I knew someone who did word-searches to keep from being distracted. I knew someone else who color coded all her notes. When I was falling asleep, I retraced my notes. This kept me awake and alert. The key is to find out what can keep you alert, but also undistracted. Do not choose to do a crossword puzzle or something that would require you to think. Pick something that will be not be distracting to others and that you can do without thinking.

The third step is knowing when and how to take notes. There are only three things you should ever write down. Write down whatever your teacher writes on the board or has on the power-point notes, especially term definitions. Do NOT write down something if your teacher says it will not be important. If you do, later when you are studying, you will see the ‘unimportant’ as just as important as everything else. This will keep you from having everything else as solid as it could have been. If you want to write it down just because you think it is interesting, have a special place in your notebook or binder to put down these notes.

The second thing to write notes for is on whatever the teacher says, “This is important,” or something along those lines. If the teacher says it’s important, always write it down. Also write it down if the teacher repeats something several times. This is a teacher’s way of giving you time to write something down that is relevant to whatever you are studying. Pay close attention if you want to catch this. It is one of the more subtle ways a teacher can help you take notes.

The final things you would write down would be notes on the lecture itself. This means: a lecture that is given without the teacher writing on the board or providing power-point notes. This is the hardest way to take notes, but if you know how to take notes, it will be easier. Often a teacher will emphasize a point by pronouncing words very carefully and slightly louder than usual. Write these things down. Be sure to write down names, dates, and term definitions wherever they come up, unless you are told they are not important.

My final point is on how to actually take notes. The most important thing you can ever learn about notes is: Do not try to write down everything word for word, except for some definitions. This makes notes copious and hard to read when you are later studying for tests. You have to write so fast that your words are sloppy, and often to difficult to translate later. The key is to choose key words from the main point. If the teacher says, “It is important to remember this: In 1918, although the life expectancy was twelve years higher, the Spanish Influenza killed enough people of middle age for this to be lowered.” You can shorten this greatly by writing down only some key words: 1918 - Spanish Influenza -twelve year life expectancy drop (You could even shorten this further if you learn to use appropriate numbers, symbols, and abbreviations in place of a whole word: Span Flu ‘18 - 12 yr. exp. Drop). You don’t have to write down anything except that which will help you to remember the information given. I once had a teacher that only allowed three words per main point, but it is easier for me to remember from fragments of phrases, whereas I had a sibling who could remember a whole paragraph from just a few words. To each his own, but shorten your notes to as few phrases or words as possible. This will save you a lot of time in studying later.

The fourth step is asking questions. This can be very difficult for some, but with the new world of technology, teachers now have e-mail! This means that you can never make excuses about not knowing material or being sure about your facts! Even if you don’t have your teachers personal e-mail, if you are in college, there are often e-mails for instructors on the college website; However, if it is possible, you should always ask the teacher your questions in person. E-mail should be a last resort. I often e-mailed my instructors to set up a time when we could meet, and I could ask questions. What sort of questions should you ask? Ask about anything you aren’t clear on, especially if you are confused about a difference between two terms or ideas. Also make sure you are completely clear about what your assignments are and what will be on your test. Asking questions about your grades is also a good idea, especially if you received a grade that was lower than your expectations. This is not to say you should challenge the grade. The point is to learn from your mistakes and try to do better on your next test and/or assignment. You teacher will be pleased with your coming and requesting advice on how to do better. A student who asks questions is greatly valued by a good teacher.

The fifth step is to study and apply yourself to your homework. Study? Homework?! Yes! It is recommended that you apply at least two hours of study a week for every class credit you take. The harder the class, the more study required. During your study time, finish the homework first, and in the order it is due. If you have three assignments, a paper Tuesday, a study guide on Friday, and a page of work due the next week, the logical thing to finish first would be the paper. It doesn’t matter which assignment is harder. Do what comes first. After you are done with the assignments immediately due then you can move on to other assignments. When simply studying for a subject, to not overwork yourself. If you need to study Psychology for an hour, but after 20 minutes you feel brain-dead, take a break and work on something else. Do your best to eliminate all distractions. Distractions are not the same for everybody. Some people study better with music playing while others would be banging their heads against the wall if music was playing in the next room. It is also important to remain alert while you are studying. This means you probably shouldn’t study on your bed, especially if you’re tired. When I study, I have music playing and lots of water available. The music keeps my mind from wandering, and drinking the water keeps me from falling asleep. Find things like this to keep you awake, but try not to make snacking one of these things. Snacking while doing homework in college can cause unwanted weight gain.

The sixth step in acquiring A’s is following up on your classes. This is a step that is skipped by most students, but it is also a very rewarding step. There are two parts of it. The first is to do research on your class subject. For instance, if you are doing critical reading, a good way to follow up on this would be to research the author, the time period, and the story itself (Critical essays, similar stories, discussion of plot, symbols, theme, etc.). I did this for all of my interactive classes, and it helped a great deal. It is extra work, and it is certainly not required, but you will always do better, especially critically, if you have researched the topic of discussion. Like I said, it is extra work, but the outcome is tremendous, and your teachers will notice the extra effort.

The second way to follow up on classes is to either have a study group with either classmates and/or have someone with whom you can discuss what you are learning in class. This is extremely important. Studies have shown that people who discuss what they are learning in class are able to conserve what they learn at a much higher percentage than those who just take notes, especially if they discuss it in a teaching fashion. You have to know your information extremely well to teach it, so teaching it will require you to learn and retain the information you need to remember.

Following up on your classes and studies requires extra work than is actually required, but if the class is important to you, you should be willing to do whatever you can to make the class worth your time.

The final step to getting A’s in class is doing well in tests. This might seem like a no brainer, but even if you apply the other six steps, you can still get a bad grade or even fail your class. Yes, this might seem silly. If you’ve spent hours and hours studying, surely the grade is absolute, but that is a very foolish assumption. In preparation for a test, studying is only one part. There are six things, aside from studying, that you need to watch when preparing for your tests.

Alcoholic and drug intake
Sleep
Eating
Music/TV
Time spent just before
God

Watching your alcoholic and drug intake is very important. Note: Caffeine and prescription medications count. Anything that can make you tired, jittery, or confused, is something that you should avoid like the black plague before a test - At least an entire days abstinence. If you walk in for a test drunk or so heavily medicated you can barely keep your eyes open, hours of study go to waste.

Sleep is also very important. Getting enough sleep is critical. You should have at least two nights good sleep before a test, preferably three. Just a good night’s sleep before the day of the test is not enough. If you are tired, it is just as bad as coming in sick. Sleep keeps your brain energized. If your brain is not energized, you can not hope to do as well as you could.

Eating the necessary meals before a tests is also extremely important, especially breakfast. Just as sleep helps the brain prep, food helps the mind sharpen and wake up faster. Also, it is very distracting to yourself and others if your stomach is growling because you are starving. Hunger is a distraction, and if it can be avoided, it should be.

Music and TV are some of the less obvious but most important things to watch when prepping for a test. The most obvious, perhaps, is to make sure you’re not staying up late, watching TV (For those who don’t realize the obvious - TV includes DVD’s, TV programs, and any sort of video game). Also, TV right before a test can be very distracting. This is a bad idea. Avoid staying up late, and avoid direct contact the day of the test.

Music is least obvious because most people aren’t aware of the affects of music on how your brain and body work. Music like Hip Hop, Rock and Roll, and Rap, for example, can have a negative effect. This is because most music of these genres use what is often referred to as staggered rhythm. This means that if the music has four beats (Like 4/4), the downbeat is not played on one and three like it should be - It is played on two and four. If the music has three beats (3/4 for example), the downbeat should be played on one, but in these genres it is often played on beat two or three. The original downbeats of music were designed to be on one and three because they then follow the natural rhythms of the body. Your heartbeat and pulse beat naturally on one and three. When you listen to music that fights this natural rhythm, your body becomes stressed. You may not feel it, but it is there. Another downside is that the music is often very repetitive, and repetitive music is bad for your brain. When it is repetitive, your mind stops computing, because there is no change. The less your mind computes, the more neglected it becomes. The more neglected it becomes, the less able you will be to process thought and information. Obviously, with these downsides, you do not want to be listening to Rap right before a test. This is not to say that these genres should be forever abandoned from your library. It should only show you that a great variety is necessary.

What should you listen to? Studies have shown that students listening to Mozart for ten to twenty minutes, just before a test, resulted in an average of over 50% greater testing results, in each student who participated. Why is this? One of the trademarks of Mozart’s music is its great complexity and rhythmic drive. In fact, most Classical music has been shown to help increase IQ, aide the ability to concentrate, and to help the listener relax. I strongly recommend listening to Classical music just before a test. So, instead of pulling out musicians like Muse, Nickleback, or Snoop Dogg, pull out ones such as Mozart, Beethoven, Vivaldi, or my personal favorite, Rachmaninov. This might upset some who would never be caught dead listening to Classical music, of all things, but there is just as much variety in the world of Classical music as there is in anything else. If you look, I have no doubt in my mind that you will find a type that suits you. Quite frankly, I have yet to meet someone who does not like at least one Classical composer.

It is also important to watch the time you spend within an hour or two of your test. Do not spend this time joking with friends, on your computer, or just messing around. Spend this time preparing and focusing on the tests. You can also spend this time invigorating your mind with the other things in this list I gave. Listen to Mozart, eat a filling snack, and make sure your mind is awake and concentrated on what is coming up. This is not the time to cram but simply to focus on the task ahead.

The very last, and I believe most important thing to watch, is that you have prayed and done your devotions for the day. This might seem silly to some. There have not been studies to show that this greatly increases your grade average, but I know from experience that I feel at greater ease when taking my tests if I feel comfortable in my relationship with God. God gives His children a peace that is comforting at any time, and I welcome it when I am testing! I do not get an A on every test because of this, but I do get them because of God. It is because of Him that I have what intelligence I have, and I think it is important to thank Him for it (And maybe to even remind Him that He wants me to get an A!). I believe He even helps His children remember what they have learned, at times, and have even heard accounts of people who said they only passed tests because of God. Whether or not you choose to believe this practice, I believe it has honestly helped me, or I would not have included it.

Now you know how to take good tests! There is no magic spell or tips for last minute cramming. Getting A’s does not even require intelligence. All it requires is work, work, more work, and a lot of determination to do your absolute best, and it is always worth it.

It is sad to see that I have horribly neglected my blog. I suppose it is because I realize that few people read it, if any, so I rarely write. However, it is a good way to relieve heavy thought and to ponder in writing.

I'm going to post a poem that I recently rediscovered in one of my lost notebooks. Enjoy!

When a heart is pained, where does it turn?
How invariably to the wrong place!

There are things which the heart must forget.

Turn not to happiness, lest your broken heart be crushed.
Let the heart be content with it's lot.

Be not stubborn and stuck in your ways, for the firm cannot be moved.
The heart will forget pain, so, farewell to Love!
One cannot exist alone, for they are symbiotic.

Love is pain, and let it be so!
For pain strengthens the best love.

The Love that is strengthened perseveres. Ah! To the very end!
For the scars of Life are a shield.

Let the arrows fly! Then the enemy draw it's sword!
For no one can hurt me! My heart has loved and known pain.

Let it always be so, now and forever.

This poem was written at a time when I realized that God seems to find the perfect way to mold me through whatever I go through. I realized that I had let pain take me and tried to turn to happiness, but it didn't work. When I let God use my pain to strengthen, and when I allowed myself to love again, I felt whole and invincible. In many ways, God has used pain to mold me into the person I am. I feel like Stonewall Jackson when it comes to this. When he was dying, he was asked if he would take the chance to go back in time - To change the past. He said he would not, because he believed that God's will was more important than his own. What a powerful concept! And one that I keep in my own heart.

God bless and keep you.
TM

Enjoying Tchaikovsky

I have been listening to a lot of music recently... Big surprise, huh?! :) Some of you know that I love to listen to the same song played by many different artists... Preferably three at the very least. I'd much rather have ten or more options. Anyway, my song recently has been Tchaikovsky's 1st Piano Concerto. It is a beautifully intricate piece. I have listened to many different artists playing it, including Martha Argerich, Peter Toperczer, Ayako Uehara, Vladimir Ashkenazy, Cecile Licad, Van Cliburn (The Chopin competition recording and the newer recordings), Monty Python :), Dimitris Sgouros, Evgeny Kissin, and some others. It's amazing to me how differently a song can be portrayed. I just wanted to share a little bit of my Tchaikovsky enjoyment with you... So, enjoy!!!

Here is Martha playing the famous octaves:



In order, Vladimir Horowitz (1943)
Van Cliburn (1962)
Vladimir Ashkenazy (1962)
Arthur Rubinstein
Arturo Beneditti Michelangeli
Sviatoslav Richter
Emil Gilels (1979)
Martha Argerich (1980)
Mikhail Pletnev
Dimitris Sgouros (1984)
Alexei Sultanov (1989)
Evgeny Kissin (1988)
Sergio Tiempo
Dong-Heyk Lim (2003)
Boris Berezovsky (2004)
Lang Lang (2004)

(When you see Martha's face, it's Emil playing, and visa versa)

Details!

Okay, so I was asked for more details about college. Okay!!! First, I'll give you a list of classes I'm taking.
Composition 1 (Mr. Burdick)
Public Speaking (Mr. Burdick)
Algebra 1 (Mr. Paris)
Voice Lessons (Tim Pahel)
CSC Choir (Tim Pahel)
CSC Chamber Choir (Tim Pahel)
Music Theory 1 (Tim Pahel)
Ear Training and Sight Reading (Tim Pahel)
Organ Lessons (Mary Harlan)
Piano Lessons (Kurt Killam)

Fun, huh! You probably noticed right away that I don't have many teachers for all those classes. The piano lessons aren't actually credited classes, but I count them anyway :) So, four teachers, excluding piano. I have Mr. Paris for one, Mr, Burdick for two, Tim Pahel for five, and Mary Harlan for one. Algebra is definitely not my strongest subject, so don't have much to say about that.
Speech and Comp. are going pretty well. I get along well with Mr. Burdick; partly because he reminds me of myself. (Don't get scared, people!) His assignments are fun and challenging, and you all know that I enjoy a challenge. The biggest mistake he made was assigning me a journal to write. Just by seeing this blog you would find it apparent that I write a whole lot more than I talk. He is reading some long journal entries :)
All the lessons with Tim are going pretty well. I've known him since I was ten, so I already knew what to expect from him. In Voice he is teaching me selections from Handel's Messiah. (The Soprano solos, for those of you who aren't familiar with that) Ear and Sight stuff is going pretty well. Theory wasn't so great at first, but I got 100% on the last quiz. Study definitely helps :)
Organ lessons are going a bit slow. I still have to get organ shoes (Yes, they exist), and I don't have an organ to practice on yet. But Mary Harlan in very nice, and she gives me the impression of a good teacher.
Piano is exciting, as always. Kurt is always supportive, and we spend most of the lesson talking, which is just fine with me. He calms my nerves. It's almost freaky how well he reads me. I'm usually the one doing that :) I'm eager to learn something challenging, but we've been on break for several months, so it will take a while to get back into the swing of things.
I really wish I could take some history, but hopefully there will be time for that later. God has really blessed me. Hope that's enough detail ya'll!
Love,
Branded by Christ's Seal

Zephaniah 3:17
"The LORD your God in your midst,
The Mighty One, will save;
He will rejoice over you with gladness,
He will quiet you with His love,
He will rejoice over you with singing.”

It has been so long! College has been great, and a wonderful opportunity to observe the world. I have always been very aware of my surroundings; especially people; and have found more, and yet less, than I expected.

But enough of that! It is time for me to write something to make you think! Hmm....
Here is a new poem I have written. I would love to hear thoughts on it. I rarely write this sort of poetry, so it's more of an experiment than anything else. Enjoy!

High above me sits the pale Moon,
Her beauty unwavering; her song a ray of bliss.
Unattainable is her purity to those who would use it for ill.

Her Gift is highly treasured. She guards it with her eyes.
It cannot be captured by fear.
Those who would attain it are shocked by unswerving zealousness.

I ask her why her light is hidden.
The white lady does not answer.
Instead, she draws a picture, writ clearly in the stars.

Then I see the answer! My heart fills with hope.
There is a Moon for every sky, it's light for only one.
And so I wait for my Moon.

I would love to hear what you think this is about! I'll give you one hint, and a sub hint :) : It is the sky speaking, and it is a man speaking.

In The Quiet of the Night

Sitting here in my room, listening to a Scottish lullaby, I am considering the reminiscence of another post I made, commenting on the affect a kind gesture can have on a person. I consider this yet again, as I consider another spur of the moment gesture I made. God continues to show me how to bless people through random acts of kindness. I've also had a great hymn going through my head all week, that might be unfamiliar to many, Guide Me O Thou Great Jehovah. Perhaps this was my theme this week.

As I am preparing for my first week of college I consider this weeks theme. I will need God's hand on me as I enter "hostile" territory. Surprisingly I am not that nervous about this upcoming adventure. Actually, I am excited. It reminds me of the quote I used for my graduation letters. "The world is round, and that which seems like the end may also be the beginning." Powerful thought, and an interesting observation.

I have prayed a lot about this new beginning that is upcoming, and have decided on a theme. My verse will be Zephaniah 3:17 "The Lord your God in your midst, the Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you in gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing." Zephaniah is my favorite minor prophet. I love the way he puts things. So clear, and yet with very subtle and mind blowing truths. This verse especially touches me, because of the thought that God rejoices over me with singing. It is humbling and lifting, and makes me want to serve God all the more. What blessing He is to me.

Guide me, O thou great Jehovah, pilgrim through this barren land.

I am weak, but thou art mighty; hold me with thy powerful hand.

Bread of heaven, bread of heaven, feed me till I want no more;

feed me till I want no more.

Open now the crystal fountain, whence the healing stream doth flow;

Let the fire and cloudy pillar lead me all my journey through.

Strong deliverer, strong deliverer, be thou still my strength and shield;

Be thou still my strength and shield.

When I tread the verge of Jordan, bid my anxious fears subside;

Death of death and hell's destruction, land me safe on Canaan's side.

Songs of praises, songs of praises, I will ever give to thee;

I will ever give to thee.

And my song for this week

Be Thou my Vision, O Lord of my heart;

Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.

Thou my best Thought, by day or by night,

Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom, and Thou my true Word;

I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord;

Thou my great Father, I Thy true son;

Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

Be Thou my battle Shield, Sword for the fight;

Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;

Thou my soul’s Shelter, Thou my high Tower:

Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.

Riches I heed not, nor man’s empty praise,

Thou mine Inheritance, now and always:

Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,

High King of Heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

High King of Heaven, my victory won,

May I reach Heaven’s joys, O bright Heaven’s Sun!

Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,

Still be my Vision, O Ruler of all.

Be A Hero

Today I got back from work exhausted! I was so tired I felt dead on my feet. Unfortunately, my church had a work day planned. I was ready to go, but no one showed up. Yes! I thought. I can relax! But it was not meant to be. I asked my mother, like I believe every dutiful child should, if she needed anything done, since she decided to clean the church anyway.
"You could clean the kitchen." She said it with a smile, that showed she was teasing. But I could see in her eyes that she was half serious, and really dreading when she would have to do it herself, when I was at work the next day. We had just torn our house up so that the carpet could be stretched, and the kitchen hadn't been cleaned for days. Needless to say, it looked like a tycoon had just celebrated it's birthday in there! Groaning to myself I decided that I would surprise her and clean it up.
For two hours I scrubbed the kitchen from top to bottom, washed the dishes, put things away, rearranged... It was crazy. She wasn't upstairs at all until I was almost finished, just starting to mop the floor.
When I was finally done, I sat with a satisfied, "Done!" Mom looked at me with relief.
"You're my hero."

If going out of my way just a little bit, despite my aversion to the task, I made someone's life so much easier, I can only imagine the impact it would have if everyone did. I was my Mom's hero today, and I want to be someone elses tomorrow. Go be a hero! Make someone's load lighter. Pass on a smile!

David Phelps' Funny Side :)

This is first shows Mark Lowry's very "original" humor :) You can tell that David and Guy had no idea what was going on because of the surprised looks on their faces and the fact that they couldn't control their laughter :)




Apparently the rumor is spreading that Mark Lowry rubbed of on David Phelps when they were in the GVB together. Enjoy!

My Favorite Contemporary Singer

Admittedly, he's the only one I listen to :) David Phelps, ladies and gentlemen. I'm not sure what to say about this great man of faith, except that you can see his faith in his singing, and you can hear it in his CD's. Enjoy!

My Bad Poetry :)

Ah, the subtle influence of a touch, a look, a word.

Even though I consider my own poetry nonsensical I'm going to post some lines from one of them. I just like the thought of this one...

Look up into the heavens.
Hear the whispers of the angels.
"Holy is the Lord God Almighty!"

Rolling, tumbling over one another
The clouds go their separate ways.
See! See! Make way for the King!

Only the pure are left.
All unrighteousness fades away.
But even the clean tremble: IN PRESENCE OF THE ALMIGHTY!

Just Do It!

Tomorrow I celebrate my 19th birthday. It's hard to believe that I have lived so long! If not for the love of Christ I would not be here today, nor do I think I would want to be.

I watched, for the first time, Mel Gibson's "Passion of the Christ." I didn't watch it when it first came out because I felt unready for it. I can't explain this, but it is simply truth. But for several weeks I have yearned to watch it. I wanted to remember. Sometimes I think the story of Jesus' sacrifice becomes simply that; a story. I never want Christ's sacrifice to become unimportant to me. You might say I never want to be a fake Christian. So many Christian's seem afraid to realize the great reality of the crucifixion. When I was not even ten years old my church, as a group, delved into the crucifixion itself, to see how it worked. I was fascinated by what I learned. I found it more horrific than I had even imagined.

A common mistake in films and portrayal of the crucifixion show the nails through the hands of Jesus, when in reality the nail would have had little purpose there. They were actually driven in directly below the wrist, so that the bones of the arm would hold the nail into place. In the hand, the nail would have slit through the skin and in between the fingers, eventually releasing a badly misshapen hand.

The position of the body, with the arms held out and the feet nailed to a block, allows the person hanging to breath in, but not to exhale. If you want to breath out you have to push up with your feet (Which have nails in them! I can only imagine the pain of this simple task). Then you can exhale. But just try to imagine the pain. Your bones have probably come disjointed because of the loose hanging, and your muscles clench and tighten as you struggle for breath. Your body is pressed against unfinished wood that splinters into your already ravaged back. As you weaken you can no longer push yourself up for breath, and you eventually die of suffocation. If you, however, live too long for your torturers taste, your legs can be broken, to shorten the time spent in dying.

In Jesus' case, he died before the soldiers started breaking legs, to fulfill the prophesies of the Old Testament. But just to make sure he was dead the soldiers, "Pierced His side." Or His heart. Blood and water gushed out. This shows that He did not die of suffocation, but of heart failure, due to shock and constriction of the heart because of fluid in the pericardium (The sack that contains the heart and beginnings of major blood vessels). What a terrible way to die! And yet, our Savior did that.

I do not understand how someone could hear this story and not be touched! And I did not even mention his torture beforehand! The horrible whipping that tore his flesh until he was unrecognizable! (Isaiah 52:14 and Isaiah 53) The mocking and beating of the soldiers! The humiliation of his mock robing and crowning, and the eventual carrying of the cross for over 600 yards, while still bleeding and bruised.

Oh Lord my God, when I in awesome wonder,
Consider all the worlds Thy hands have made;
I see the stars. I hear the rolling thunder;
Thy power throughout the universe displayed.

Then sings my soul, my Savior God, to Thee;
How great Thou art. How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, my Savior God, to Thee;
How great Thou art. How great Thou art!

And when I think that God, His Son not sparing,
Sent Him to die, I scarce can take it in.
That on the cross, my burdens gladly bearing,
He bled and died to take away my sins!

Then sings my soul, my Savior God, to Thee;
How great Thou art. How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, my Savior God, to Thee;
How great Thou art. How great Thou art!


This story fills me with love for my Savior. I challenge you to spread it! Tell people that nothing they have suffered even compares to what Jesus did for them; out of Love! We are so blessed!

Heavenly Father, I Magnify Thee.
Heavenly Father, I Magnify Thee.
I love Thee, adore Thee,
I bow down before Thee.
Heavenly Father, I Magnify Thee.

25 Most Influential Men - Part 2

This post will have to be relatively short, because I have to go to work shortly... Let's start where I left off.

Derek Miller ~ This is my second of five older brothers. Quite naturally he has had a great influence on me, as a brother in blood and as a brother in Christ. He was always partial to me, and we are very close.

Jason Miller ~ This is the oldest of my five brothers. His influence has been on many levels, including the way I take a test! He is probably the one I've had the least contact with, but still a lot compared to some relationships.

Matthew Miller ~ This is the youngest of my five older brothers. When I was little he was the one brother I wanted to be friends with, and I am still like that in many ways. His influence has been astoundingly great in ways I can't explain. I was always partial to him, despite our many differences, probably because of our closeness in age.

Nathan Miller ~ This is the third of my five brothers. We are alike in many subtle ways that most wouldn't notice. His influence has been more on that level than anything. He was gone most of my teenage years, in the military, so I haven't had as much contact with him as I would like. But his influence is still marked in my mind.

Rodney Miller ~ This is my father. His influence has been one of the greatest and most pronounced. He has always been a loving and gentle father. Sometimes a little annoying :) But always my Daddy.

Stephen Miller ~ This is my fourth brother of five. He is probably the brother that's personality is closest to mine. This being so, his influence was probably more so than some of the other brothers. We have always been pretty close.

Allen Patterson ~ This man I have known personally much of my life. I mostly saw him as the man who looked a lot like one of my brothers before I actually got to know him. His influence has also been of a more subtle kind that many fail to notice.

Paul the Apostle ~ This man in dead, and I do not know him personally. He was also known as Saul when he persecuted Christians. His influence has been that of his walk and ministry.

Donnie Plemons ~ This man I have known, all my life, as Brother Plemons. His influence has been through his Christian walk and ministry. He shows God's love in the most loving and hardworking ways. God has greatly blessed me through him.

Howard Russell ~ This man I have known for at least eight years, but have had personal contact with for six years, because of his music ministry. His funny yet insightful way of using his music ministry has been a great influence on the way I minister.

William Sillings ~ This man I have known of most of my life, but have been in personal contact with for four or more years. His influence has been in his Christian walk, his ministry, and the conversations we've had together. His wise insight has been a great help and witness to me.

Aaron Ward ~ This man is an adoptive brother. I have probably known him for four or five years, and his influence has been of a brotherly kind.

Richard Wurmbrand ~ This man I have never met, even though he died during my lifetime (2001). His influence was in his Christian walk and him ministry through Voice of the Martyrs, a ministry that I personally support as much as possible.


Well, there you go. One man that isn't on the list, but would have been the 26th is Amos Hann. A man who shows his faith in the most interesting ways. :) Those of you that know him understand best.

25 Most Influential Men

I was thinking that people might wonder about the list I did about the 25 most influential men in my life... So I'll start from the top; even though It may take several posts to finish.

First though, I will note that not all of the people in my list are living, nor do I know them all personally. Most I do know personally, and I believe that only one is dead. The list was heavily considered... So, here goes!

Andy Andrews ~ This man I do not know personally. He is actually a writer of historical fiction. I chose him for my list because of one of his books that greatly influenced my views on life. The book is in my top 100 books list "The Lost Choice." It talks much about how every decision that someone makes affects the course of not only their own life, but of others lives.

Frank Baldwin ~ This man I do know personally, and have known of him all my life. He was known to me as a great preacher, and his influence on me has been mostly because of His Christian walk. I have not seen him in many years, but my memories of him are special.

Randall Clark ~ This man is my godfather. I have known him for almost ten years (About half of my life). He was not a Christian when I first met him, but has been for most of the years I've known him. His great wisdom and quiet talks with me have greatly influenced me. He and I are alike in many ways, and he has taught me so much.

Douglas Crossman ~ This man I have known all my life, but do not see often. He is Welsh, and travels a lot because of his ministry (As well as his wife's ministry). He is the kind of person you always remember because of his funny personality. His influence on me has been most noted in his Christian walk and ministry.

Mark Horton ~ This man I know personally and have known him for at least six years. He gave me my most touching compliment, and his encouragement of my ministry has greatly influenced the way that I minister.

Thomas "Stonewall" Jackson ~ This man is not living, nor do I know him personally. His life has greatly influenced the way I live. He once said "Captain, my religious belief teaches me to feel as safe in battle as in bed. God has fixed the time for my death. I do not concern myself about that, but to be always ready, no matter when it may overtake me. That is the way all men should live, and then all would be equally brave"

Jesus the Christ ~ This Man, who is also God, I have known of all my life, but have truly known for eight or nine years. His influence is the greatest of any man, and it is given through His life, ministry, and others of His choosing. To try to explain would be pointless, because there are no words beautiful or wise enough.

Richard Kenny ~ This man I know personally, and have known all my life. His influence on me was noted during a time of personal suffering, when he gave me comfort. He knew my pain when others didn't, and because of his love I am influenced.

Kurt Killam ~ This man I have known for four or five years, even though I have had other brief contact with him, several times, over nine years. His influence was one of a peculiar kind... He was one of few who would talk with me about anything, and seemed to read my feelings. He gave me much comfort and laughter when I felt sad.

Steven Knaack ~ This "man" is actually a boy, and will always be a boy. He has Down Syndrome, and I care for him during the summer. He has given me much laughter and love in his influence. He is a great blessing to me.

Gerald Mershimer ~ This man I have known personally for four or more years. Even though I haven't been in much personal contact, his ministry and Christian walk have greatly affected my personal walk. His caring ways made me feel appreciated and wanted when I needed that badly.

Loy Mershimer ~ This man I have known personally for six or more years. I have corresponded with him often in those years, and his quiet ways of showing God's love in his ministry greatly influenced my own Walk.

That's all I have time for now. God bless!

~Branded with God's seal.

Do It With A Prayer

I just did another concert today... For those who don't know, I sing. It is a gift; not something I worked to get or bought from someone. Saying this I also say, most humbly, I sing pretty well. I boast of nothing I do not have in Christ, and this is true to the greatest extent.
I have to admit that I was not always humble about it. God had to show me that it was a gift, not something I won, in a way that humbled me greatly. I won't give any details, but suffice it to say I was greatly embarrassed at my big-headedness. God has shown me much since then, and though I can't say I showcase very well, He has shown Himself through me in the most amazing ways.

Something I've never told anyone about my singing is that I always pray and give my song to God before I sing. I do it several times, actually, depending on the amount of preparation I have. I just let God sing through me. I know this may sound very superficial and silly, but I've never felt like it was me singing after I started praying about it beforehand. Before I would struggle to show off, but now I leave it completely up to God what my performance will sound like. If I sound terrible, I can say it's His fault :)
After I started praying beforehand I noticed a difference in my singing that was probably unnoticed by others. If I forget to pray, it is noticed by others, whether they say so or not.

Tonight I prayed so hard. My music was out of place for the concert, because my style was very different... But I gave it to God, and He gave me His Spirit, just like I knew He would. The result? I believe Mom said, "They were transfixed as soon as you started."

All the glory and the honor belongs to my Father.

When Your Choice Affects the World

I have recently been observing and thinking about the profound difference it makes in the life of a person when they except Christ. Most of my siblings have made this choice, which is a great blessing, and in one, particularly, I have noticed a great change.

One was my second brother. I was always attached to him because he was partial to me, but I didn't like how he would get upset over silly things; Like me leaving a towel on the bathroom floor, or taking my shoes off and not putting them away. Once I remember doing just that, and he got so mad at me. "Why can't you put your own stuff away? Do you think other people want to pick up after you?!"
Then one summer I noticed a drastic change in him. He was less likely to get angry with me for silly things, and when things turned out bad he took it with grace. I especially noticed it when I went with him to a house he was building. He dropped one of those guns that can be used to fill up cracks, with a white sort of glue in it. The glue sprayed all over the room, and I expected him to blow. I waited for it, and it never happened. Instead, he laughed! Not because he thought it was funny, but because he was disgusted. I knew then that my brother had changed. He reacted to things differently, and now I never feel nervous that I'll do something wrong when I'm around him.

If I was affected this much by one persons choice, how many others did my brothers choice affect? And if his choice makes such a difference in the lives of others, how many more are affected by others that have changed. It makes me wonder why there aren't more Christian's, if this is so....
There is something profound! This tells me that Christian's are messing up! If people can't tell the difference between a Christian and a non Christian they will never know what a Christian is. If they never know what a Christian is they can never make that choice. God says that we know a Christian by their fruit. In other-words, I'm not a Christian unless people can tell that I am different than the average Joe. So what does that tell you?

Dancing In The Rain

Today my Grandma, who died last year, was on my mind. Particularly memories of the day before she died. There was a thunderstorm outside, and my sisters and I were running around. We were changing into dry clothes when Mom told us to start packing.
I remember how hard it was not to cry, trying to be strong for my sisters and Mother. The night she died I managed to hide my tears, and then didn't cry until after the funeral. My other Grandma hugged me, and I remember thinking, "I'll never hug Grandma Halligan like this again." That was when I broke.

It has always amazed me how people so often hide their tears. It seems a very unhealthy practice, and no matter how hard I try to let myself cry my mind won't allow it. I am the kind of person that cries easily, but prefer not to show it. My disposition is naturally cheerful, so I simply let that show more predominantly. I don't exactly hide my emotions; I just don't let them effect my mood.
The last time I cried was just this morning. I had just finished singing a song for camp, and I was so moved by the Holy Spirit I had to walk to the back of the chapel and let it out. Tears flowed, and I couldn't help it. Sister Mershimer saw me standing there, trying to compose myself to no avail, and just took me in her arms. How blessed I felt!
I'm not so sure there won't be tears in Heaven, because I will be weeping for joy. How can I not weep when I am so blessed?

Special Abilities Children

There are many terms used for people/children who are mentally unbalanced... Strait retarded, which is considered unkind; Special Needs, which could be seen as insensitive; Special, which I see as something someone says when they really think the person in question really isn't that special... Slow... "Not all there"... It seems endless. I prefer to call them Special Abilities children. I'm not saying that all of them are prodigies; but they have a way of communicating that I find different from anyone else. There is an innocence in it; a love; a thirst to prove themselves; a forcefulness that others, who don't have experience with them, might find frightening.

The boy I care for is a very "in your face" child. Despite his awkwardness he has a sense of fluency in the way he moves. And when he gets in my face, just to annoy me, I can feel the aura of affection and love in everything he does to drive me crazy. This ability is amazing to me. The pure genuine way he communicates is part of what I love about him. Sometimes I wish everyone I knew was so straightforward!

Words of Wisdom...

A famous apologist once wrote, "If you treat something like an animal long enough it will eventually become one." I use this theory when doing child care. This may seem odd to some, but I've observed that children learn what you expect of them, and then do exactly that and often nothing more. If you don't expect a child to respect and obey you, the child will often do just what you expect.



I take care of a Down boy, and he is very special to me... I do my best to treat him like I would any other child. I expect him to behave, help me with jobs around the house, to be kind, etc. He knows this, and as a result I have gotten a lot of joy in the job. We have made some advances too! He will eat anything I put in front of him, which is something he won't do for anybody else, including his parents. He tests me sometimes, to see if he can get away with disobedience, but being firm is something that I am very serious about.


What you expect of people says something about you... It's an interesting thought.

Assumptions and Psychology

I recently talked to a friend about Psychology, and she claimed that Psychology is a lot of trash... I tend to not agree with this assumption. This is something I will have to study in great depth to be an Occupational Therapist, and I think it's wrong to roll everyone in a profession into one group. That's like saying that every doctor is brilliant, or every truck driver is bad news (that is not to say that every doctor is stupid or every truck driver is kind). There might be some groups of people that are all the same, but often there are different sides to each group. For example, there are three types of Muslim's. There are the average Muslim's (The majority of them) who claim to be Muslim's, but don't actually follow the teachings of Mohammed. (Jihad). Then there are the Traditional Muslim's, who want to follow Mohammad, but are either unable or afraid to. The last group are the Fundamentalist Muslim's, who actually follow the Jihad teachings. (If you know anything about the teachings of Muslim's, and the way that they decide which laws to follow, you will realize that those who are Jihad Muslim's are actually the real Muslim's)

In many ways, everyone is a Psychologist. Basically you are like a Profiler. You make assumptions of people based on what you observe about them... You might see someone wearing clothes with paint and stains on them and assume that the person is a house painter. Maybe you see someone shopping, and observe that in their shopping cart they have diapers and baby powder, so you assume they have a baby at home. People make assumptions based on so little all the time... Isn't that akin to Psychology? I think so... Just a thought.

J. S. Bach

Bach was an amazing guy! I've been doing a lot of research on Classical composers, and I found his life one of the most interesting.
He had a temper, like most composers. Once, he called a fellow musician "Kippelfagottist," and, "Nanny-goat Bassoonist!" The man that Bach was speaking to picked up a stick, Bach drew his sword, and they would have dueled if Bach’s friends had not prevented it!
But he was a devoted family man. He had 20 children! He was unlike composers in the fact that he prefered to compose in the middle of daily life, and not in solitude. He wrote his music in the kitchen of his home, while his wife was cooking, and his children running through. His children were allowed to bother him at any time, and he didn't scold them for it. He also enjoyed transcribing Vivaldi's compositions, which made Vivaldi famous.
He was also a godly man. His son, C. P. E. Bach, was said that the family, "Were in the habit of beginning everything with religion." Bach even wrote a godly poem about his tobacco smoking!

"On land, on sea, and home, abroad,
I smoke my pipe and worship God."

Bach loved listening to music so much that he traveled 200 miles, on foot, only to attend a worship service for Advent. He went because he knew that the renowned organist, Dietrich Buxtehude, would be playing. Bach himself sang, played the organ, and violin, and numerous other instruments.

Mastiff's

I saw an add the other day that said English Mastiff's are smart and loving. The person who wrote it must have never met a Mastiff, or has never had experience with the smarter breeds. The loving part is true. My families mastiff is probably the most affectionate dog my family has ever had. But smart? No way. Lady chases her shadow on the wall, snorfs her food... She has the most distinct facial expressions I've ever seen on a dog. Whoever wrote the article must not have looked at the statistics either. The three smartest dogs are Collies, Poodles, and German Shepherds. English Mastiffs are number 73 on the smart list. My family jumped 70 dogs going from one dog to the next. (The dog before this one was a Shepherd.) But her affection makes up for her stupidity. She was worth the buy.

BTW! The article forgot to mention that big dogs are not easy to have... Especially if they weigh over 100 pounds, like mine.